Failed, or Defeated?

This Month our church Services are focusing on the Family, and last night's Service touched on the Roles of a husband and a wife.  As our Pastor began to preach on the husband, I sat still in my seat, but thought to myself, "Is my husband listening?"

Then the Pastor began to preach on the Role of the wife.

It wasn't pretty.

At first, I deceived myself into thinking that I had my Role down pretty good, but the longer our Pastor kept preaching, I realized that there were quite a few areas where I missed the mark.

I began to fidget.  I wanted to resist the Holy Spirit's conviction of my sin; I was no longer asking myself if my husband was listening; I didn't want him to listen, I didn't want him to know how I SHOULD be, when he already knows how I really am.

I was embarrassed.  I had failed.

But I was not defeated.  Why?  Because I knew that I did not want to stay the way I was, I asked God to change me.

"For the just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again."  Proverbs 24:16a

Once I acknowledged my sin before God, I knew I had to apologize to my husband; so, I did, and guess what?  He apologized to me too.

I guess we were both listening!

I am human, I will fail...

    But I am only defeated if I quit trying-

        But that's just me!