Silent Conviction

 Psalm 32:3 says, When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long.

If God sees everything we do and hears everything we say, why do we find confessing our sins so difficult?  Why do we try to hide our secret sins from God?  When we keep our sin, fears and anxieties inside, we end up hurting our physical and mental well-being.

When I was a little girl and did something wrong, I would make a conscience effort to keep it hidden from my Mom.  Oh, she usually already knew what I had done, but I wasn't ready to admit my transgression yet.  I could usually make it through the day, but once I got into bed and my Mom tucked me in, I knew in order to get a good night's rest, I was going to have to talk to my mom.  I knew that if I didn't let my Mom know what was bothering me, I would get a stomach ache.  My lack of confession was only hurting me.  That's what Psalm 32 means.  When I'm convicted of sin and don't confess it, I just end up making myself sick.

As I grew older, and worries crept into my thoughts, or if I was having problems with my health, I would call my Mom on the phone.  It wouldn't take long in our conversation before my mom would say, "Honey, what's wrong?  What's really going on?"  As soon as I shared my heart with her and talked with her through my fears, by the end of the phone call, my heart was lighter and I was burden free.

I miss my Mom and our phone conversations.  She's with the Lord now, but when I'm overwhelmed with the cares of this life, or if I have unconfessed sin in my life, I hear God whisper, "Come talk with me, I already know what's going on....let me help you."

1 Peter 5:7 says, "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

I'm going to give my cares over to the Lord.  He handles them best anyway-  but that's just me!